Do you like to climb?

Swimming is so wonderful, I love it very much. It makes me feel so happy and cold and wet and chlorinated. Anyways, this past week has been crazy in a quite enjoyable way. Especially starting on Friday. This weekend I had 2 b/day parties, a Japan retreat, War Cry dance practice in Fuquay, the last youth group ever (very sad), church, George's graduation, and Kristen spend the night. Ahhh......
This is my one week anniversary of being off of dance. I don't miss it yet, but I do have a random overwhelming desire to strech every once in awhile.
My current occupation is swim team. Oh yeah! Good old Parkwood Pianhas! We rock the world.
No it's really fun though b/c I been going for about 6 years and the people are all awesome. Well not all, but the majority.

Joanna, I have a little present for you for you're b/day that I never gave to you.

Bud McClearnan has the best abs I've ever seen on a living thing in my life. It's amazing. Signey today said that he looked like an abercrombie model. I havn't paid any attention to any recently, but next time I pass that store I'm gonna see if she's right. hehe.
Have you ever played sharks and minnows? Well, if you havn't you're missing out on the best swim game ever invented. No one at my pool ever gets tired of it.

doo-tee do. currently my life is mundane and there is not much to write about. It's Lauren's b/day today. She's at the beach. I think I want to go on a bike ride. THat would be nice. I also want to make some money. B/c, as always I want to buy things. Things... Oh, and a digital camera. I might actually get one in the near future. YES!!! I'm gonna use graduation mulah and get me a camera. Alyssa, what did you say your camera was? I forgotted. I need to clean out my rock fountain. It has all this chalky stuff built up and all the water evaporated. Hehe and there are still some dried up mother's day carnations in it. Three. Ewwwww... they got kinda moldy.

Do you like to climb things or is it just me? I love climbing things. Like sometimes, when no one else is home I'll just climb a tree and sit up there for awhile. And there is this HUGE mulch pile in our front yard and that is fun to climb up too. If I knew it was safe I'd climb everything. My house, and tall trees and other buildings and random objects. Once we were locked out of our house and I climbed in through the second story window and it was one of the most awesome things ever. What fun. I also like to fall. Or at least I find it fascinating. I heard once that if you fall from a high place and you roll out of your fall you won't get hurt. So I wonder if someone could jump out of the 2 story and sort of collapse into a roll at the bottom and not get hurt. I think it would hurt.
I also like to turn. It is a sensation that you can't get any other way. Like in dance if I do a triple(turn around 3 times on one leg basically) it jus feels so good. And if I don't turn for awhile a start to miss it. It's different from spinning on a tire swing until you're about to throw up although that has it's perks too. Fuller said that if you turn around a certain number of times than you're legally drunk. I forgot the number though. Oh well, I'm off to do whatever...
see ya ppl

I think everyone should have a rich great-aunt...

Sooo... my 88 yearold great aunt has been at our house for a week now and she's leaving tomorrow morning. She is very interesting. ANd there are some definite perks to having her around. I've eaten out so much recently that I feel perpetually full. we didn't really eat out last week, but this week... yup. I've eaten my weight in food. Or at least pretty close. And good food too. (look at all the o's in that last sentence.)

Today was my last day of dance. It's over. It is finished. It's kind of sad, a little scary, and definitely hasn't sunk in yet. I've spent about five days a week with those girls for the last 4 years and I may never see them again. I don't love them all and I've been hurt by each one, but I do like them and I'll miss them. I got LOADS of flowers today! I mean like my arm wanted to fall off by the time I got to the car. The prettiest flowers I've ever had in my life. The Ruff boys danced in the perf. Christiaan is purty good. Better than most of those boys. I got tons of flowers, a little candy (but I took 2 actually), and the beginnings of a scrapbook and a card from the teachers. IT was like a mini dance christmas. It was my last performance in Meredith probably for the rest of my days. But, I invited the girls in my class to my graduation pary thing at my house so you should all come and then you can see them. I also gave them money begging letters for my Japan trip. I know at least claire's fam will give me some money. I just made the letters today, but if you read my blog and know who I am you're invited. Yes... you. Anyways, on my letters that I printed out I said Saturday June 5th, but it's really Sat June 4th. Hopefully no one pays attention to anything but the Saturday part.

Why in the world is half of Grace church's population born in May??? I mean really. It's a bit much. Oh well. Happy birthday to you all. Especially Jo b/c I havn't said happy b/day yet and hers was today? possibly? or close.
And Kristen, I tried on Anna's wig today. HA! I looked weird. Although Chris looked way stranger! hehe. he looked like a girl.

Saturday is the last youth group for me.... sniff sniff... so sad. It will never be the same after that. wow. All my buddys and my little buddies and the dancing in my little corner and the various diff leaders who I really got to know and like. It's a sentimental time of year. I don't care about school, I care about the ppl. But hey, I'm going to college and little old me, born and raised in Durham will be moving and going by herself where she knows no one and making all new friends and living without parents. Sounds like an adventure.

oh, and if you ever get the chance, get yourself a rich great-aunt...

howdy, howdy, howdy

Well... I havn't posted in awhile. So here are a few highlights of my past week.
-the car breaking down at Wendy's with Kristen. She's hilarious... she's like "I always wanted to have a car break down." That was actually fun. We walked across the street to the church and Daniel jumped poor old Chester for us.
-Chris had a b/day party Friday. (he turned 11 today) so I got to play with all the little boys. WE went to the baseball field and played Brittish Bulldogs(a stupid game) then How many steps to Germany. Peter Barrow is pretty close to faster than me and he's only like 11. sad. Then after food mom filled some water balloons that we all threw at Chris on the Trampoline but half didn't pop so he threw them back and one totally soaked me. So ppl kept filling up more balloons and I joined the battle. It was fun. Me an Charley an Peter took on Chris and Katherine and the Gwaltneys. Good old fashioned fun. Then we played ghost in the graveyard after cake. I just had some leftover cake like an hour ago and I'm so full. I ate too much.
-So Saturday I figure I drove at least 4 hours. Isn't that impressive. I really don't mind it though which is good. I went to raleigh then chapel hill then fuquay then chapel hill and durham (my house) in between each trip.
-a definite highlight would be mr. Busom dancing outside of Wendy's. yup... very interesting.
-Sunday lunch at the armstrongs with the church kids. some good hang out time. I went to the store with alyssa to get some wine. hehe. that's a first. It just went in the pot and then home with alyssa though.
-rock climbing. Not at all easy, but a laid back enjoyable time.

So those were some highlights to my week. Oh, yesterday the car broke down again. It turns out the car ppl put in a bad alternator so they fixed it for free and chester should be fine now. I hope.

Keep on

Worn with holes
comfy and fit
not quite white, but not quite any other color
run, run, run
I wanna run
keep these shoes forever
just go... and go
tired, but no!
keep on agoing
slow... walk
pant a bit; rest
loiter and meander
oh, look at the flower
such a big, big sky
oup... lets keep on
keep on keeping on
soon you won't be weary
you'll be strong
you'll be content
with your worn out rubber
that's not quite white, but not quite any other color
and the sky'll still be big
and the rain won't be a hinder...
and you can Run

check ya later folks...

graduation

What a retarded word! Its too long and it just sounds stupid and it's not fun to type. "I'm going to a graduation." It doesn't sound like english.

on another topic... Today was my last day of highschool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES!!! YAY!!! YIPEEE!!!
(those are all 'y' words)
I took my last test/class/schooling of my highschool experience today at Durham Tech. And I think I did quite well too. :)

I also made a bit of money today. Always good. and I cleaned my room for about an hour or more. Oh, how I love clean rooms. I hadn't cleaned it in about a month so it was about time. I now have not much to do besides dance. This week is looking rather full and I have about three options of things to do on saturday, but the future looks bright. I see it... off in the distance. Aw... my eyes. I can't stand the brightness.

I have three mothers day carnations sitting in my rock fountain. they smell good. I went on two bike rides today and I think I bruised my butt bones b/c they hurt. The first time I went the seat was kinda small and quite hard. Oh well.
Yesterday was mothers day and I think it was one of the most full of emotion days I can remember. It was good, sad, hard, and fun. Mostly it was family. Family is not easy, but it's usually good. It really is good to have Keith home. The only drawback is sharing the car. I didn't dance today.... I havn't danced much lately. Only went three times last week. and didn't have rehersal Saturday so I was only there 1 1/2 hours. weird.
Friday was Becca and Donalds wedding. It was pretty. I love weddings. They are weird though b/c you see ppl you used to know. A long, long time ago. I must say that cute klutzy flower girls walking down the aisle with little boy escorts all dressed up is one of the best things I've ever seen. Yes indeedee.

Isn't it weird how you can be so content and then something reminds you of this tear in your heart and you immediately want to cry even though you were fine for like a week before that. Is it bad to forget? How do you know the difference between forgetting and healing?

Wasn't it funny that this weekend there was both a sermon on seeing God as father and seeing God as mother? And does anyone else find it absolutely hilarious every time Will wears his kilt? It cracks me up so bad. It may be MacFarlane plaid, but it sure is funny seeing your pastor in a kilt in 2005.

who am I?

Hello....
hmmm.... so my life. Yes, mine.
who am I?

well... I am God's. not god's, but God's. I am the beloved of Jesus. I am clean inside. I am creative. Jesus is my best friend, truly, and me and Jesus have some secrets. :)
I'm a warrior. I like to laugh at the devil b/c he's a retard and I know that even though I'm not a very good warrior, I'm the sidekick to the best, so even if it takes awhile, we'll always win. I am faithful. Even if I havn't seen someone in forever I'll still think about them and hope for them.
ooh... and in prophecy's it says I'm a starburst. ;) and I'll prophecy. I even did a little while ago, even though I havn't given it to the kid yet. I love to dance. I love to skip around in my head in feilds and flowers and rain and puddles. I also like the strechy feeling that dancing can be. I am obsessed with nature. God created it to show us his glory and I'm all about seeing some glory. The other day I went on a walk by myself and stopped for flowers and leaves and just to look around. I'm not particularly brave about certain things. I don't like to call on the phone to ppl I don't know. And downstairs right now is this man ringing the doorbell and I'm not going to answer the door. I don't feel the need and I'm home alone.
So I suppose this is all some of who I am.
I think it changes from day to day. At least who I say I am does. Well, it doesn't change, but I would tell you different things from day to day.

Who is God?
what an amazing question. Not straight forward like it seems. To me sometimes, God is just this feeling I get inside when I look at the clouds, sit by a stream, or listen to a good song. But he's so much more. He stretches from here to there and there and farther. He already knows the friends I will have in college and who/if I will marry and what my grade on the test I took last Friday is. He knows much better than me who I am and who my real friends are. One of my favorite things about him is that he is close. He is close to me and shares my experiences so I can talk about them and he understands. It's not like I have to try to explain to him what SERBA is or why I do what I do. He is close.