I'm bored!
So, nothing is going on right now and I'm thinking about doing something that I will not enjoy just b/c my friend is. Nothing bad, but definitely not something I'll be comfortable at. There were tons of things to do tonight, but my back was hurting like crazy. So I don't know what to do. i'll go check mail. what fun.
ha.

Forever ago

So it was forever ago that I posted on this thing. Crazy. So school is really weird this year. Totally goes up and down all the time. Right now I'm pretty good, but earlier today was rough, but two days ago was amazing. A roller coaster. So I asked God some stuff awhile back and this is how he explained the whole back thing to me. I get joy out of dancing. I was made that way. But God is teaching me how to get my joy from him alone. So that means no dancing. That's not why this is happening, but that is some of the good that came out of it.
And during church today I was bored b/c I'm not used to Presbetyrian churches and so I was entertaining myself by listening to what God told me about ppl. This one girl lives in a verbally abusive home. Another didn't think she was pretty. Two of the boys I went to the church with wanted to be just like the pastor. They had a real desire to know God. There were a lot of really good men in the church. And then I prayed. I prayed because I didn't know what else to do. I felt bad for the girl with the messed up family. And it bothered me most of today b/c I didn't have anyone I could talk to about all this. And I didn't talk to any of the ppl God told me about. But I did pray.
It's amazing what you can hear if you listen. I asked God once what he was doing in the world and he told me. He told me several countries where he was doing certain things. I don't remember anymore, but it was cool. I just looked thru my journal trying to find what God told me about the countries. He's told me some good stuff recently, and I've been thru a decent amount of crap. I'm glad. It's made me fuller and more alive. To be truly alive in this world you have to be able to know God thru the pain and the joy and happiness. So, sometime soon I'm going to start to create. To create movement. And I'm excited. I can't wait to move. Jesus, I'm excited. I'll be able to play again and jump and create and just dance. And it won't hurt to sit in classes and I'll be able to touch my toes. yippee!!!
Till then I'll amuse myself with people, my camera, and knowing Jesus. It feels good to be able to truly know that I truly know Jesus and that I talk to him all the time.
I want to spread that sometime. THere is so much in this world that needs love. So much brokeness and despair. God I ask for hope in this place. In my college, in Durham, in America, in the world. I pray for hope. And I ask that you would step into those hopes and make them come to be.