busy, busy, busy

Yep, I havn't posted in awhile... my weekend was crazy busy. Some of it was fun busy, but some was just too much. Friday I babysat, went to class, and then went to dance for 5 hours and then went strait to Ray and Jordan's B/day party which was just lovely. Saturday I was at dance for 6 hours and then went to youth group. Sunday I went to church and heard that black guy who got baptized's awesome testimony. It's not everyday that you see someone who was falsely accused of murder more than once and spent at least ten years in prison get baptized in your church. Pretty cool. Then I went to the Johnson's house in Cary and hung out with them and Rachel Mangum and went to Harvest's youth group. There youth group is miniscule. I mean SMALL. They meet in a basement and I knew half of the youth group with just knowing the Johnsons and Rachel. it was nice though.
It's weird... I've been hanging out with Rachel and Anna and Sarah since Collision b/c we got a prophecy that we were a group. They all know eachother, but I don't know them too much and they don't know me too much. But we're all good friends. I like prophecy.
Then this morning I studied for my Spanish entrevista which i guess is just talking in spanish and answering questions. It wasn't too hard. I was a real estate agent and talked about my two clients. Yup yup. Then I came home and have done the equivalent of nothing.
Feels good.

Saturday, Chung said God was singing Beautiful One over us. But we were singing it to him too. So me and God had a nice little duet to eachother on Sat night and it was a very interesting (in a good way) experience.
At Harvest youth group last night we all said who we thought God was. One person said I don't know. I think that's true sometimes. sometimes none of who God is seems to make sense and your so confused that you truly don't know who God is.
When I was thinking about it though the words Not Perfect popped into my head. I was like what in the world. God is perfect. I think that God is perfect, but he doesn't always seem so.
We have an idea of what "perfect" is in our heads even though no one can really comprehend perfect. So when God does something that doesn't fit in our "perfect" box we think God is mean or he messed up or doesn't know what he's doing. If I ever notice I'm thinking stuff like that I correct it and know its a lie, but we don't always think about what we think about if that makes any sense.
Another think I thought about last week was that there are countless numbers of gods out there. Jesus is the one True God. Satan and Buda and nice clothes and your hero can all be gods. Jesus is God.
Jesus is different b/c he is good. He cares about me more than I care about myself. He does not want me to change. He wants to change me. Other religions expect you to change yourself.

Right now in my life isn't easy. God is testing me and I believe that like Jerry said yesterday the promotion comes next. There are a billion things to think about right now. Who is God? Who am I? What do I do with all of the issues i'm just now discovering in my life?
These are good things to think about because if you truly ask God he will show you and he will change you if you let him. Change is not always happy, but with God it is always good.