mmmm.... rock climbing ahhhh......

Have you ever walked into a room full of inanimate objects, and been quite convinced that one of them was situated in such a way as to deliberately give you a start?
Well our dryer just decided it needed a break on saturday so my beautiful room is full of wet laundry. In fact I removed a shirt from my chair in order to sit down and some of the damp has invaded my trousers. Anyways, my clothes were apparently quite tired of my room (being that they stay here almost 100% of the time) and they, partucularly a pair of blue capris, decided to become as animate as they could for the duration of my walking into my room and turning on the light. They were rather suprisingly good at it too.

My homework today for Spanish was to learn all of the spanish Fuller could ever want to know. All about cars. Pisas el acelerador (Step on the gas), se abrocha el cinturón (buckle up), and my all time favorite: atropella el perro (run over the dog). Another good one is: choca con el arbol (crash into the tree). The wonders of languages.

Yesterday I went rock climbing with Erin Gubitz and Mandy and Catherine person. It was fun. I am now a belayer. whoopee. By the time I got home my hands were so tired i could barely wash them. Even now balling them into loose fists reminds me of trying to cling on to small pieces of "rock" screwed onto a wall. It was a totally different world. There were ppl there, and you could tell they came all the time. Like my world is dance, their world was climbing. And today we went into a bike shop and this guy was there (he was cute) and you could tell that his world was the world of bikes. It's amazing how many dang worlds there are. And you mostly aren't even aware of the ones that you aren't a part of.

mischeif! hahahaha. what you don't know can't hurt you. (maybe) but it may suprise you, shock you, confuse you, or block your reasoning facilities. One never knows. Well I guess One always knows, but Two never knows.
Did you know it really stinks to have your dryer broken? oh and our DVD player broke sunday so the dvd watching arena is guess where. My bedroom! with all of the half-animate clothing. And Chester is in the shop for breaks, so I can't drive myself to class tomorrow. Instead of waking up at 9:30 b/c my class starts at 11:00, I have to leave the house at 10 til 9. Oh the agony. Oh well, if I was actually in school I would think that was sleeping in. Or even if my mom decided to be a homeschool nazi mom.

people amaze me. for many reasons, but the current one is how they can suprise you with how much they care. About the amazingly selfless ideas they can come up with and even carry out on occasion. Especially when the person usually does such dumb stuff and seems so much more self aware than any other ppl aware.

Today I emailed Maria from Romania back. It's so sad. It bites when you make really good friends with someone and then fly away and you know you'll probably never ever see them again.

My life has been really weird since Saturday. This week I have no dance so I'm at home a lot, but I still have more than enough to do. I'm busy, but not at the same time. Ick! Plus this weekend my life kind of changed. oh well. I'll sort it through eventually.

Jesus...
what a good word, name. can mean so much. does mean so much.
Jesus could I put my hope in you? I know you want me to, but am I able? The way I am... so hard. I try to trust you. It seems like it should be easier to trust myself or my family. Well, it is easier, but then life happens. and it's harder to trust in general. Not the kind of trust where you believe the other person. that trust is easy. it's easy to believe words. to know they must be true. It's a whole other thing to actually trust that your life is in God's hands and that you don't have to take it back from him every once in awhile just to check in on it's up-keep. I mean God is invisible and your life is sort of invisible and if you can't see it you at least want to tap it sometimes to make sure its there. You know it has to be. It's obvious. but you don't entirely trust. It's not like a trust fall. you fall over and this person swears to catch you and you feel like your falling, but you know they'll catch you, and if they don't you'll bump your head and then bump their head as well. It's like you have no idea what your life will become or what to do even just tomorrow. It might snow, your dog might die, you might find 20 dollors. But then there are things that you are responsible for. But you still should trust God. But you have to do them b/c God isn't going to physically mail out letters begging for money for Japan or ask your teacher where you should dance this summer, or apply for a job or any of that. But you still should trust God about it. I don't quite get it.
Oh well... I believe God is in charge and should have good plans for my life and somehow he'll work out the details and everything. Jesus, give me peace. And assurance would be nice too.